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  1. After more than 24hrs without food I had a huge and strong joint and it just flipped me. I was walking through the forest and it was like its not real. After few minutes, it felt Im looking through a long tube. I kept calm, prepared food, had a drink and didn't even tell my friend… after a hour or so it started to fade and eventually I even had a few joints that evening.
    I think the most important thing is not to panic (easier said than done).
    Lack of sleep and all that lead to a breakdown a few months later after being homebound for 3 weeks with a illness. Got health anxiety and all this shit. Ok now but not a nice memories 😀

  2. does anyone else forget that they exist? like I feel like i’m always forgetting that i’m a real person and when I remember that I start to freak out,, is that normal?

  3. Does anyone experience visual changes with dp/dr? I feel like the sky and atmosphere just looks 2D and fake it makes me not even wanna go outside cause the clouds look fake and they trip me the hell out 😪

  4. Man I wish I would have come across this channel when I was first having panic and DPDR years ago. So much great advice here. I do have some questions about DPDR though. Is it possible to experience this on a daily basis even from mild triggers? I get this all the time even if the trigger is small. I did have some trauma in my past that got this whole thing started for me.

  5. It's so funny… about a year and a half ago I got dp/dr sooo bad I thought I was literally mentally insane … n now it's literally laughable…. trust me FOR ANYONE WHO NEEDS TO SEE THIS ITS OK IT WILL GO AWAY WITH TIME …I KNO ITS hard to imagine… but literally ignore it 💯

  6. I’m currently in the mix with dpdr and I have got better 7 months ago I would never have left the house because of my anxiety and the symptoms yes I still have it but with small steps I will get there but one thing I’m struggling with my thoughts sometimes there quite overwhelming but watching your videos has helped motivate and given me awesome tips thanks so much

  7. Hey Jordan, i found out something very important which can support the recovery from dpdr. I talked with a doctor about how blood sugar can influence physical Stress. In the past few weeks my dpdr came back and i couldnt explain myself why because my mind was very calm. After a couple of weeks i went to a doctor and my Blood sugar was way to low and some sort of instable. He explained that there can be many reasons for that in my case it was caused by an instable hormonlevel after i stopped taking antibabypills. It can be also caused by a wrong diet (but there are many lists in the Internet with Products and recipes that keeps your sugar Level stable). I think that this is very important because during the first phase of my dpdr i didnt eat properly and sometimes i didnt eat anything at all but my doctor explained that a very low blood sugar Level or an instable Level can lead to so much physical stress comparable to a panicattack and there are many universities which proved that. i had many symptoms which i used to had during that anxiety phase (my body felt stressed and i couldnt sleep and so on) but my threatening tiger was my own blood sugar. After only 5 days i feel way better and i know that i can recover from this Stress again ^-^

  8. I’m a hypochondriac with dp for about 1 month and a half and dp made me feel like I was in a simulation and then I had started to believe I was in a simulation and that everyone wasn’t real and I’m in a simulation by myself and everything they try to tell me was tryna hide me from the truth and it’s really making me depressed and idk what to do edit: and I also am worrying about being in a mental hospital for the rest of my life because of my health anxiety do have any advice on how to get over this because I’m just scaring myself more and more

  9. It's just depressing how for some people with dpdr (including me) memory gets so messed up, like I can't even remember what I did two days ago, I must really focus on it for couple of minutes to try to recall some of the stuff… it really bothers me and it's very difficult… 😥

  10. Hey Jordan ! Sometimes I have fear that's I psychosis or schizophrenia because I feel better that I recovered but sometimes dp/dr come out of nowhere but I do the body scan and feel better. Am I going crazy or is it just anxious thoughts?

  11. Please help me I feel like no one I know is real like I feel like my parents aren’t my parents how do I stop feeling like that

  12. Could you make video where you explain how to make sure if you do or don’t have depersonalisation? I’ve got it from weed like a year ago and I don’t know if I still have it.. because I don’t know how I felt before. Is there any way you can determine whether you still have it or not?

  13. I really don’t know what my trauma is or how i got dpdr it was after a elevator I got scared and nervous and tense but than after I got off the elevator it was fine but then dpdr turned on the I had a panic attack from dpdr that’s how it all started

  14. I just want to let everyone in the comments know that you CAN overcome this .. i suffered dp and anxiety from a bad experience with weed .. i was messed up mentally/physically for a little over a week .. his videos helped me tremendously to recovery .. im back to my normal self now .. while experiencing this , its very scary but understand those fear based thoughts you’re having are NOT real .. its just the anxiety .. your NOT going crazy .. I would have to say that God helped erase those negative thoughts out my head .. and also making some positive lifestyle changes .. if anyone needs any help/advice feel free to msg me here ❤️ sending lots of love to everyone xoxoxo

  15. I didn t know that it could happened on alcool , but at the same period (month) i start feeling dpdr i have a really Bad Trip with alcool like i feel i really gonna die , i started to pray to not die ,but actually if i was alcoolised its possible that the amont of stress that i bring out to my body was much important that i perceive and farorise the happening of dpdr
    There is so Many thing that could causes dpdr , i think i had a combo when it started .smoking weed (shit), anxiety ,muscle tense

  16. I used to have dp/dr from too much marijuana, I had it for about 4 months maybe 4 months and a half. When I got it, I was freaking out, thinking that I will never ever recover from it… Here I am, 8 months after I got it and experienced it, recovered with a fine nervous system, stable mental state.
    I recovered from it by doing things that I wanted to, not like all the crazy things, not out of human brain boundaries kind of stuff, but like travelling, doing everything I wished for before I had it, yes it cost me a lot of money, but the best thing about it is, that I recovered from dp/dr and made a lot more friends.
    So you could do like me, or some of you could do like you, it's not that hard to recover from it than you think. Keep going and you'll reach the end of it, don't ever give up on something you are not done with, because the end might be very close.

  17. I'm in a constant state of panic at the moment.. it started with fear of dementia and as the panic got worst I eventually started being scared of conscience thoughts and now I feel like utter crap all day. Anyone got any remedies?

  18. As someone who developed DP/DR from weed, I can assure you I've had my fair share of panic attacks after drinking too much, especially in the days when I was prescribed benzodiazepines. Highs, drunkenness and hangovers cause a hyper awareness of bodily symptoms, which we interpret wrong. Once it's interpreted, the fight or flight turns on in an INSTANT. Once that adrenaline kicks in, those symptoms are a whole new ballgame. It's REALLY REALLY difficult to calm down once it's all triggered. You begin to fear the panic symptoms because they are so overwhelming and terrifying. They're meant to be terrifying. If the symptoms weren't terrifying, you wouldn't run or fight if you had to for your life. It would be easy to accept a panic attack and derealization if you were attacked or running from a fire engulfed house, but because it happened due to a bad high or hangover, it's very hard to accept that it truly is adrenaline. Health anxiety is a Bear. Sorry for anybody who has to go through this. It's something I wouldn't wish on anybody.

  19. You are doing such a great job I first suffered 40 years ago and it's only through you I have learned how to handle it ..

  20. hi whats your email? i have been wanting to tell someone (anyone really) my dpdr story. someone who i feel like would really understand it and not really judge me or think im crazy. if you dont give it to me thats ok i would 100% understand:)

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